For anyone who is visiting this site and reading this blog for the very first time, I extend the warmest of welcomes to you.
It’s my goal to keep you coming back for more. More content about my life and the songwriting, music business and home recording components of it.
However, for those of you who have known me either personally or from afar over the years, you’ll see yet another attempt from me to start up Corey Stewart Online only to have it disappear from the internet under the guise of being “under construction” or whatever excuse I can come up with.
I’m not intending to make this post sound like a total beat up on myself however, I am telling the truth here.
I’ve stopped and started many times with my websites and with each version of Corey Stewart Online (and other blogs) created, I’ve crossed my fingers and hoped that this would be the last time that I wipe the online slate clean and start again.
So, what makes this time any different? Nothing really, but I am however, much more motivated than I have been in the past and this is the reason why.
Mara, my partner (and muse) for fifteen years and my wife for almost six, passed away on November 22nd, 2020 and from that moment on, my life irreversibly changed.
Whereas before I was a perfectionist, always willing to wipe the slate clean and start again in the hope that next time around whatever I was working on would be perfect, I am now not so hung up on perfection.
Whereas before I was a control freak, getting upset if the slightest deviation of my planned day was to be experienced, I am now not so hung up on control.
Whereas before I was ultra-competitive to the point of being jealous, not finding the joy in the success of others over my own endeavours, I am now not so hung up on competition.
And what has been the driver of this change?
It’s the fact that life is far, far too short to engage in these empty emotional activities that don’t get you anywhere except a one way ticket to misery and suffering.
As for Corey Stewart Online… Well, this blog is my way of addressing the famous quote from Socrates.
“An unexamined life is not worth living.”
Two of the main things that Mara taught me was to first of all, embrace life with both hands and secondly, to treat other the way that they would want to be treated.
She did this just by living her life and it was an absolute joy to be around her when she was in full Mara mode.
Being in full Mara mode meant that Mara was 100% in the moment, just by being herself. She knew what being her meant because she lived an examined life.
Whereas me, I was still living on autopilot.
I want to live my life in full Mara mode too which means I need to stop living on autopilot and examine, embrace and explore what it really means to be ME.
Hence starting up Corey Stewart Online again but this time I’m not coming at this from a place of ego, I’m coming at this from a place of learning… About myself.
So, if you’re a first time visitor to Corey Stewart Online and first time reader of this blog and you’re still here… Just know that there’s a lot of history attached to this site but at the end of the day, I think we’re going to get along just fine.
For those of you that know me either personally or from afar… Thank you for sticking by me and this time around, I wont let you down.
And Mara, wherever you are… The memories of you that I hold dear will not be in vain. It is now the driving force behind everything that I do.